Discovering what love is one day at a time
Ever since I was little, as early as I can remember, I have loved the sound of the beat of a drum…it resonates deep in me. My insides jump up and down for joy at the sound. There is a point where it becomes too beautiful for me and I can’t handle it anymore and tears well up and overflow. It is like I want to run away or curl up in the drum itself. Imagine then a parade….a symphony of drums…
The first time I read the Scriptures, and realized that God was speaking to me about specific things; it was like my drum experience. His voice like a symphony of drums reached deep into my heart. His mercy flooded me and overwhelmed me. His voice filled with that mercy met a deep hidden place and my spirit jumped for joy at the life and hope contained in His Words. The deliverance that only He can promise is beyond my human understanding, and sometimes His love while He is running to meet me frightens me until the reassurance of His character and pure love for me is remembered.
When I remember that Truth, I want all the more to curl up inside His arms, press in to His chest and truly hear His heartbeat. To remain there, it is important for me to agree with Him to remove the thing that encourages me to run. Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes it is tied to more than one thing, thought, attitude or behavior. That can be overwhelming, but I know that if He has given me the eyes to see, He certainly is not going to leave me in that place to fend for myself. By His grace He will enable me to get to the other side of it. He will mature me in my understanding. He will grow me, heal me, deliver me, strengthen me, and transform me.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
I have been married to my wonderful husband for 22 years. We have two young men ages 19 and 13.. This blog is somewhat of a journal and attempt for me to keep a purposeful perspective on life as a whole.