Discovering what love is one day at a time
The older my kids get, the less I know. I certainly have an opinion, and a desire for them, but answers I do not have.
The only thing I do know is Christ, His salvation, His love, and His peace that surpasses all understanding….
His Word provides me with continuous hope, direction, comfort, conviction, wisdom, and strength. His Word, is living and powerful and sharper that any two-edged sword. It calls things as they are, cuts to the chase, and rescues me from my wrong thinking.
I don’t have any or all of the answers for my day to day, yet He does. When my children are hurting, and I cannot fix it for them, or give them the answer they need to hear, He holds my heart in His hands, and He holds theirs too.
Every single one of our days was written in His book before they ever came to be. He has hedged us in behind and before and not a word is on our tongue before He knows it all together. He knows me, He knows everything about me…He knows every thought, every harsh word spoken, every act loving and every act evil that has been perpetrated by me… and yet His love for me has never changed, waned or been withheld. His love for me is the same today as it will be tomorrow, and it is the same as it was before I was even born. It is perfect, and all encompassing.
I am so thankful, for the love of Christ in my life. His perfect love casts out the fear that sees the state of our world, our country and its leadership, the day to day happenings in the world around us that begs for our spirits to crawl in a hole and hide. His love allows my eyes to see my own lack and how desperately I need Him. His love opens my eyes to see others and what drives their behavior…
His love helps me to separate inappropriate behavior from the person perpetuating it. His love gives me honor, value, and love for myself and equips me to have honor, value, and love for others. He provides me with the wisdom to set boundaries, which protect and guard the hearts of others and mine as well.
He is my shelter, my strong tower, and my ever present help in my “ever-present” need.
I recently attended a funeral where the congregation sang Jesus Loves Me at the end of the service, and as I struggled to sing it I felt like the Lord showed me some places that I refuse His love. However through all of that, I was reminded how important it is for me to KNOW, understand, and experience; to seek after with my whole heart, and desire true understanding of HIS LOVE for me. To truly receive it, and to allow Him even more into my being;( you would think by now I would be done being surprised that, I refuse Him, and sin…) Pride rejects love, and is offended when pointed out.
He has given us all of His love, but yet I think there are hidden places that we allow our flesh to rule, and reject His healing, and refreshing love to rule and reign. No one knows their own heart, but God does. It certainly is painful when He shows us things that we have clung to, that aren’t Him. The freedom and the healing that comes from truly receiving His grace leaves you undeniably free.
The older I get the less I know…but Jesus loves me, because God says so. May we each chase after Him with all of our hearts that we would grow in the knowledge of Him and be strengthened with the understanding of how deep and how wide His love for each of us truly is.
…Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit…
I have been married to my wonderful husband for 22 years. We have two boys ages 18 and 13.. This blog is somewhat of a journal and attempt for me to keep a purposeful perspective on life as a whole.