Discovering what love is one day at a time
Last night before going to sleep my husband asked me, “What is your favorite Psalm?” I told him Psalm 139, Psalm 139 is one of those Psalms that early on in my walk painted a picture to me of the tender care of the Lord, and provided for me moments of really? No way! And how awesome is that.!! Even though he read from another version than how I have learned it, the words that have made themselves at home in my heart resounded as he read them out loud. My heart was leaping for joy at the sound of my heavenly husband and my earthly husband reading to me and tucking me in at night. O’ the joy of my soul being kissed by the Hand that has formed me, and my heart being kissed by the man who has pledged himself to me. Thanking the Lord for this life which He has given me, and praising Him for His care to never leave me, never forsake me, and always pursuing me with His pure and everlasting love.
For the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David. O LORD, You have searched me and known [me].
You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off.
You comprehend my path and my lying down, And are acquainted with all my ways.
For [there is] not a word on my tongue, [But] behold, O LORD, You know it altogether.
You have hedged me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me.
[Such] knowledge [is] too wonderful for me; It is high, I cannot [attain] it.
Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence?
If I ascend into heaven, You [are] there; If I make my bed in hell, behold, You [are there].
[If] I take the wings of the morning, [And] dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
Even there Your hand shall lead me, And Your right hand shall hold me.
If I say, "Surely the darkness shall fall on me," Even the night shall be light about me;
Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You, But the night shines as the day; The darkness and the light [are] both alike [to You].
For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully [and] wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And [that] my soul knows very well.
My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, [And] skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When [as yet there were] none of them.
How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them!
[If] I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand; When I awake, I am still with You.
Oh, that You would slay the wicked, O God! Depart from me, therefore, you bloodthirsty men.
For they speak against You wickedly; Your enemies take [Your name] in vain.
Do I not hate them, O LORD, who hate You? And do I not loathe those who rise up against You?
I hate them with perfect hatred; I count them my enemies.
Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties;
And see if [there is any] wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting.
All of our days are written in His book, before any one of them came to be…His thoughts toward us, more numerous than the grains of sand, and they are all of love, He knows us better than we know ourselves, and knows what we are thinking, before we even speak it. Such comfort in those words alone, knowing that He has hedged us in behind and before, He has gone before us, and we are surrounded by Him. It is a really great position to be in. No matter what comes our way, He is in the midst of it with us. The darkness is like light to Him, we get to see things through His eyes. We get to. May the eye that we see with be full of light, in the midst of the darkness.
I have been married to my wonderful husband for 22 years. We have two boys ages 18 and 13.. This blog is somewhat of a journal and attempt for me to keep a purposeful perspective on life as a whole.